Sunday night was the last time i slept making monday the last time i woke up till this morning... for 36hrs yesterday,
i just couldn't sleep and the few Power naps i took i wont even count as sleep since they lasted all in total of 15 mins. yesterday day evening i was dragging, exhaustion was taking it toll and i took 2 muscle relaxers to help, hoping it would. i passed out about 1030 and Amos got up and brought me balian when he woke to nurse, i know that because i woke up next to balian and joss for that matter. to bad im wide awake again and feeling the insomnia roll over me dragging my psychie away from sleepiness and towards annoying alertness with no drive.
im going to have to get these meds changed... im back to loosing sleep but its more sleep. sure im on a "chilled out/numbed" emotional wavelength so i can function better but my drive and my "give a damm" is bad to being gone...just when i was so glad it came back to.
as a mother and wife i am unable to indulge my whims like i use to. my family needs me to much for that. i so badly want to go to Heidelberg for the castle lightening this saturday, yet im already giving myself excuses for it to be ok if we dont.
i got my VA MGIB POST 9-11 in the mail, and i can now go to college for free ... only now i have to get my kids enrolled in the cdc so i can go school and study.
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