she just wont listen

Thats it!!!! when we go to landstuhl with Amos on Wednesday im going to try to get a same day appt to talk to someone else. This women here just put me back on Zoloft and upped it to double what i was taking when i went to see her and stopped taking it becaue i was feeling more hopeless... she keeps telling me im depressed and my "depression" is just manifesting itself differntly. She is so busy trying to push me to wean so i can take prozac shes not listening to me and my symptoms.

now do i take the zoloft or just forget about all meds till i can talk to someone else. this is the internal debate at the moment. Should i be happy with the little sleep im getting. *she claims i must not be that sleep deprived becase im in her office functioning* or should i demand my 6-8hrs?

i wish there was another Psych doc there that could perscribe meds, and not treat my BFing as the plague. Since i cant sleep im up googling safe sleep medication and anxity meds for BFing mothers. (*something where weightgain and insominia arent inteh top 10 side effects*)

so wednesday im going to beg for

Sleep Aids				[contents]
Zolpidem/Zolpidem Tartrate	Ambien	Approved	B	L3

but as far as other meds im pretty much stuck on Zoloft if i decide to take it till i can find more concrete info on other meds.

Other then all that going on, today was a good day i had energy to clean some and ran a few errands, tomorrow i promised joss we would go to the library for toddler time. Im reading a new book.



so now im going to go try to sleep agian..if i cant ill be back online or reading my book.